Thursday, October 1, 2009

One year

One year ago....
--I would never have posted many of these pictures of me. I was so swollen! Now, I realize it's all part of the gift of pregnancy.
--I was ready to scream I was so irritable
--I wasn't even sure I would be induced on the first. I had to be checked at 4pm on the 30th to see if I was ready.
--I had no idea that my entire labor (including putting in the pitocin drip, breaking my water, etc) would be four hours.
--I was frightened because my epidural wasn't working. The baby was coming too fast.
--The nurse anesthetist who gave me my epidural is a friend. Her husband and I teach together. She bailed when she realized the baby was coming!
--I remember feeling sad that it all happened so fast. The baby was in my arms, and I felt like it was a dream that I woke up too early from.
--After three hours of having no name, I let Thad name our fourth and final baby...for the fourth time.
--One year ago the flood of feelings, tears, emotions, and most of all love swept me off my feet again.


A year later:
--Other than the throwing up business, I would STILL have ten more kids if we could afford it. I have always said that.
--I am sad to realize that I will never have my own baby to snuggle with, sits still in my arms, and nurses.
--I now have a baby who throws everything, flips his head back when he cries, freaks out when I change his diaper, wakes up at night just to know where are there, rips up his siblings' books and homework, gets into everything, laughs uncontrollably, makes a mess, and is incredibly happy.,
Happy Birthday Brady! Your mommy loves you more than you could ever imagine!

8 comments:

ABCDH said...

Oh my Gosh, why can't we get just one baby that stays 10 lbs. forever??
You are such a good Mommy. I wish I had the patience and kindness you have with your kids.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful tribute Bonnie - it makes me realize my little girl will be a year old in 1 month....except I'm pretty content not to have any more. I don't know how you do it, but you do and you do a great job! Happy Birthday Brady!

Amanda Swenson

Dr. J said...

Happy B-Day Brady!

Kate has the same tantrum actions, throws her head back then collapses forward onto the floor with her arms outstretched. She'll be a great actress one day if that keeps up.
~R

Melissa said...

Okay you have made me want another baby...I keep getting baby fever and keep trying to shake it off. Once again a very sweet post Bonnie. Your kids are very lucky.

Vicky said...

Happy Birthday Brady! Seriously, a year already, wow :) I could totally see you with 10 too and being totally unphased by it.

Jenay said...

Wow, what a great post. You are an inspiration and you balance the working Mom thing just fine... Don't ever doubt yourself, you are a fantastic Mommy. Happy Birthday to the big one year old!

Anonymous said...

What a great tribute to your family! You are such a great mom, Bonnie. Your family is so lucky to have you!

Elizabeth

Erin said...

Everyone already said it all. You are an AMAZING mother, and a beautiful one all the way through pregnancy and delivery, every time. Happy birthday, little Brady!