Friday, December 12, 2008
Today was the day that I got to help out in Kate's classroom. It was really fun. I got to see my old buddies from the Halloween party, help kids make gingerbread houses, take pictures, and visit.
Kate didn't really want my decorating advice, but I have no artistic skills so I left her be.
The kids finished by 2pm. I thought it would last until school got out. They got to take an extended recess, but when Kate asked if I would come outside I passed. I wasn't prepared to be outside for awhile. I did say 'maybe' to appease her. That was a big mistake.
After about 10 minutes of visiting, I decided to go. Brady was due to eat, I was starving and getting shaky from it, and I honestly didn't think Kate cared whether I was there or not. So I went home, fed Brady, had a snack, and visited with Olivia and my mom.
Then Kate's teacher called and told me that Kate was really upset. She was sobbing that I left her without saying goodbye. She expected me to come outside. She went back to get me and I was gone. Her little heart was broken. I explained to Kate why I left and apologized many times. After that I sort of blew it off.
It wasn't until later when another parent/friend and then the teacher called to see how she was doing. Kate was quite a wreck I guess. It dawned on me then that this was her special time with me. I left her for Brady. She felt abandoned. I told her that I didn't think she cared that I was there, but she said, "But mommy you said you would stay, and you didn't. I wouldn't have asked you to come if I didn't want you there."
I learned my lesson. If this scenario should present itself to you, just stick around.