Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Being a mom

A friend just emailed this to me. I don't have the energy to write about my Thad-is-out-of-town-Olivia-is-sick-week-from-hell, but most of the things mentioned below have happened to me this week. I am not a good writer and couldn't put all of my experiences into words, so this sums it up. I will, for the sake of generating laughter out of you all, mark what really has happened to me....not that I am complaining!

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on.
Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. (almost all of the above)
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. (did that today after one hour of straight screaming...she had a catheter, rectal, and all the usuals) Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. (oh yeah) I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. (okay so last night I just didn't sleep)
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. (today) I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. (So I didn't choose to wake up..Olivia did!) I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry I can't be there to help out. You're a great mom and I love you very much. Hopefully I'll be home on Friday night and will be able to relieve you of some of the stress. Give all the kids hugs and kisses from me.

TBRKO said...

Thad--don't feel guilty.I am not stressed out other than worry for her and trying to figure out what my students should do every day.
Everyone here is fine so you just worry about the trial.
Love you too!