A friend just emailed this to me. I don't have the energy to write about my Thad-is-out-of-town-Olivia-is-sick-week-from-hell, but most of the things mentioned below have happened to me this week. I am not a good writer and couldn't put all of my experiences into words, so this sums it up. I will, for the sake of generating laughter out of you all, mark what really has happened to me....not that I am complaining!
Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on.
Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. (almost all of the above)
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. (did that today after one hour of straight screaming...she had a catheter, rectal, and all the usuals) Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. (oh yeah) I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. (okay so last night I just didn't sleep)
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. (today) I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. (So I didn't choose to wake up..Olivia did!) I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.